Today's word is "lost" because that's as good a word as I can come up with to describe how I've felt. Lost. Unattached. Ungrounded. Floating. Untethered. I'm not sure which, if any, words really describes how I felt today, and precisely because I feel this way I'm not sufficiently motivated to actually ponder this such that I could come up with a good word or two. In fact this whole mess probably is best suited to some kind of "deep but in a nebulous kind of way" poem.
I get this way from time to time. It might be something like a circuit overload of sorts I suppose. There is far too much multi-tasking in my life, or so I think, and sometimes it just gets to be mentally exhausting. Add some physical exhaustion to the mix and you probably have a perfect storm of mental disorder. It's as if there is this kind of centrifugal force in my head that is just about ready to send my gray matter off into splintering directions at any moment, if it were not for the affects of some strange mental gravity that holds things in my head together. It all gets to be so damned complex.
Anyway, I'm ready for this day to end at any moment. Good riddance. Right now I'm just waiting for something I just took a few minutes ago to take hold and send me off into what I hope will be about 8 hours of catatonic slumber. I've learned over the years that the closest I get to a natural circuit breaker reset lies in some sleep. Mind you I still hate sleeping, but even I concede that, from time to time, it is necessary.
"Sanity and happiness are an impossible combination." - Mark Twain