I'd like to say that I never take down postings, but that's simply not true. Between late 2016 and early 2017, when I was in full job-search mode, I actually took down a large number of postings, 98% of which had to do with former Diocese of Scranton Bishop Joseph Martino. This is a deeply Roman Catholic area, and I didn't need to hamper my job prospects with social media content that may have upset a recruiter or hiring manager. As a side note, I could bring those postings back, but then they would all appear as new (all be it very dated) content. Anyway, while I've taken down postings for practical purposes, I've never taken anything down because I was embarrassed or ashamed of what I wrote. Until now.
Words like "ashamed" and "embarrassed" are maybe a tad bit too strong in totality, but they do describe how I felt about the content after the fact. Even more surprising is the fact that what I posted was actually a watered-down version of something that was, well, even worse. Yes, that was the *edited* version. For one of the few times in my life not being popular has been something of a blessing.
So, what's behind all of this? Two things really:
- I'm struggling a bit on the career front.
- I'm the person who gives, not gets, advice.
As to the second point, well, I think it speaks for itself. As a statement of absolute fact though, it's pretty much rubbish. We all need help from time to time. Sean was kind enough to point that out to me in a posting comment. Suffice to say, "Physician, heal thyself" is far harder to execute than you think, even when you're not an actual physician.
What to do about all of this? Well, I did debate(2) the idea of simply closing up the blog shop, but I just don't want to do that, especially after nearly 10 years. Then there is the whole blog hiatus thing, but I've always found such proclamations to be silly: Either have a blog and create content or delete it. All told, simply owning up to things and pressing the reset button made the most sense. Hence this posting.
What's next? Well first and foremost, get this posting out of the way. Second, I'm officially funneling any career-related-angst-fueled energy I may be experiencing into other activities. Being transparent and authentic is good and noble, but in reality, there needs to be a (more thoughtful) time to every purpose under heaven.
Cue the music...
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(2) In my head, for about a day. Side note: I don't like odd numbers, which means that I'll write pretty much anything in order to have an even number of footnotes.