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Wednesday, October 21, 2015

Road Apples, #165

The Martian...I saw the movie The Martian over the weekend.  It's worth the effort and the money.  It's great to watch a movie that's simply a good story; the fact that its got an element of science fiction to it makes it all the better, at least for me.  I'm thinking that the potato board must have helped sponsor the movie though.

October... As I was laying in bed at 4:30am Monday morning, I realized that I have a ton of things to do at work, as in several big things to deliver.  It's nice to be needed, I think.  First things first, time to make a list.  A big, hunkering list.

October is an interesting month for me.  Some good things have happened in October, and generally speaking, I love the weather.  Some not-so-good things have happened as well, but it's hard to not have those kinds of things in any kind of life worth living.  As I often times remind myself, life is the ultimate contact sport.

Blog Dilemmas...I have a posting that I've been holding onto, in one way, shape or form, for a while now.  I just can't seem to get myself to hit the publish button.  The content might be upsetting in some corners, but that hasn't stopped me before.  I think maybe the bigger issue is one of perceived disappointment, namely that, despite my advancing age, I still don't want to be a disappointment to anyone.  Apparently even people I either barely or don't know.  Oh well, I suspect it will eventually see the light of day.

Also, it has been requested that I write something funny.  I'll have to think about that one some more.  Generally speaking, I don't do well with blog content requests.

School...I am officially 40% done with my graduate coursework, and am on track to get half way done before the end of the year.  I've already begun to ask myself the question "Gee, now that you don't have school anymore, what are you going to do with your time?".  Somehow, I think I'll manage.  Some things I could do include:  Learning to play guitar, learning to speak French or Italian, starting up a business blog, volunteering to help others and/or going to a trade school in the evening.

Struggle...Granted, it may appear that I more or less have my "stuff" together, but being a completely and normally flawed human being, there are many things I do struggle with pretty much on a daily basis.  Some of those thing are:

- Physical Exhaustion (due to really bad sleeping patterns)
- Socializing, as it's really difficult for me
- Ego*, mainly in others, as I'm more or less afraid to have one of my own
- Optimism, I try hard to be, but it's a struggle at times
- Self-Doubt, its always been a problem for me
- Self-Talk, as in I have to work hard to avoid the negative variety
- Over-Eating, and there's no rhyme or reason to it
- Judgement, I am by nature judgmental, and I have to work hard at not being

(*) The more I read and think about the works of Eckhart Tolle, the more I'm convinced that he's absolutely right about ego.

Feel the Bern...I confess to not being a fan of Bernie Sanders.  Maybe it's the militant advocacy for unions, his often quoting of the erroneous 78% wage gap (see HERE; there is a gap, but it's not that big and some of the reasons for its existence have nothing to do with evil, scheming older white guys) or the notion that college should be free (it has value, so it's worth paying for...although that cost shouldn't be measured in "house sized" units).  Anyway, I think the passion for him is at least partially a negative reaction to the candidacy of Hillary Clinton.  Now I don't consider myself a fan of Ms Clinton, but I hardly believe that she is the evil, communistic she-devil that her opponents make her out to be either.  Bottom line?  It's going to be a long primary.



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